In music a crescendo is where you get louder or build up to something bigger. We are building up to the big day tomorrow and it’s getting very exciting.  Today has been my favorite since my babies are finally here.

They make me so happy. Their snuggles are helping to ease the heartache I feel being away from my sweetheart. It doesn’t look like he will make it here tomorrow.

He started bleeding from his ostomy today. It was alarming to him but the CT scan didn’t show any major cause for it. The doctors are baffled in how to help him but are doing the best they can.

He had to have a catheter put in today. It is helping him sleep because he was having increasing trouble emptying his bladder and was up every hour in the night.

Thank you Phoebe for staying to care for him. I know you wanted to be here.

Not only is tomorrow our daughter’s first live performance on national television, but it is also our 20th wedding anniversary. I don’t think anything in life this far will be more difficult than being away from him tomorrow. I love you Amos and I’m looking forward to many more anniversaries with you. Please keep fighting, rest and build up your strength for better days to come.

 

Thank You Phoebe and grandma and Abbe and Sarah and Missie and my dad for your help today. We seem to have gone two steps forward then one step back today on Amos’s lab results but the doctors can’t really figure out why. They are puzzled because his cultures have come back negative for infections but the white blood cell counts tell a different story. Until they figure out what is happening they do not think it’s safe to discharge him.

He was able to make it out to the waiting room to see the kids today and I’m so grateful for that. They were a little teary-eyed when they saw him. He told them that people die, it’s part of life and it’s nothing to be afraid of because we know that we are eternal and will be resurrected.  He continued with focus on Kirra who seems to worry the most. “Yes, people die but that isn’t what’s happening here. I will get better.” 

Aunt Sarah, thank you for taking my kids to the Mesa Temple Visitor’s Center today. I know they loved that.

Evie and I had a really special evening thanks to my dear childhood friend, Lara Reeb, now Frandsen, who happens to live near Hollywood. She sent her amazing husband, Steve, and their children to pick us up and take us to a special youth meeting with two of The Twelve Apostles. Elder Ballard and Elder Rasband’s words and spirit were exactly what we needed after a week in Hollywood. I went with a prayer and a spiritual question in my heart. Elder  Ballard said something in the last 10 seconds that answered my question in a remarkable and unexpected way.

The Fransens then took us for dinner and it was wonderful to become instant friends.

Here are a few more back stage pictures from our exciting day. Evie got to rehearse in Mel B’s dressing room and had lots of fun with Celine and Dion Tam. I took a little tumble from some water that had spilled on a slippery floor and hurt my foot. I’ll be fine. Thanks for the Advil Steve. He told Evie if she was still around this Saturday, he would take her surfing with his kids.