I’ve never witnessed Amos in such pain while on the stand at church before and he was on heavy pain meds. He had to leave his seat during the choir number to throw up so his last pill might have been lost.

Someone asked me why I still hold choir practice and why Amos even comes to church. I get asked all the time why he doesn’t just ask to be released as bishop.

I suppose our motivation might not be what some might believe. For us, it is about building on the relationship of trust we already have with God. We aren’t trying to win a marathon or pay anyone back or prove we are better than someone else.

Many believe that living our religion or any religion to its fullest is too difficult. I have friends who once believed but admit they gave up because it’s too hard to “try to do all that.”

We don’t see it that way. We have found that we don’t need to be perfect but that God will meet us where we are and help us grow. It is our responsibility not to turn away or move backwards from where He met us on our journey.

We have simply learned that life is easier when we give God all we have, holding nothing back. Submitting to His will allows us to have the confidence to depend on Him for all the rest.

Life is easier, more joyful and more fulfilling when when we choose His plan for us. We allow the struggles we experience to fortify our foundation, give us clarity of purpose and sanctify us so we can progress.

Amos and I both know we have a long way to go so we are thankful for struggles and opportunities to show the Lord we are still trying and haven’t given up.

I remembered that I promised you all a nerdy video of Porter detailing what is happening with Amos’s Y90 radiation procedure. He is seriously the cutest nerd I have ever seen and I thought he explained it really well.

Amos had a good nap today. I’m sure his good counselors filled in for much of his duties today after church. We enjoyed some Living Scriptures with our kids and tonight we get to attend seminary graduation. Right now Amos pacing with no relief from pain. It always seems worse at the end of the day. He is looking for the motivation to put his suit back on.

He found it.