Last night was both incredible and horrific. The home videos they played before  Evelyn’s performance touched me so deeply and carried into my dreams. I was only able to sleep for about an hour last night so I’m surprised I had a dream at all.

After her performance I found a quiet place back stage to tell her that her dad’s organs were failing and that he had been placed on life support. I asked her if she wanted to get home right away or wait until after the results show. Her eyes filled with tears and she seemed confused but she decided to stay.

When we got back to the hotel, the nurse who cared for Amos last night called me to tell me she didn’t believe he would make it through the night. That resulted in uncontrollable anxiety in me that led to a flare up of my own plurasy which makes it  hard for me to breathe. I lay awake most of the night with my heart racing thinking of my sweetheart and all he was going through and the extent of my love for him and the past 20 years we’ve spent together.

I prayed for the dawn to come without another phone call and it finally did.

He was sustained through the night and to me that is a miracle. It helped me to find my hope again that more miracles can come.

His dad told me the life support is holding steady for now but that he was just made aware that a hurricane is heading toward his home in Florida prompting him to get back. Thank you  Dean for everything.

Amos’s mom arrived in the night as did his brother Tom. America’s Got Talent made arrangements to get us home immediately after the live results show tonight rather than tomorrow as planned. We are so thankful to them for their kindness and understanding. Simon isn’t the only one who gets emotional about Evie Clair. Dozens of producers and staff members are going through this challenge with us and we love them for it.

I know I wasn’t the only one who had a sleepless night. My kids at home are struggling and I’m anxious to get back to them.

Today in addition to the life support, they have him on dialysis and are struggling to keep his blood pressure stable.

Hang on best friend.